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Sunday, 09 August 2009

  • Okay so its been about a month since I got on here & did any exercise. I woke up feeling crappy one morning & just couldn't get back into it until about 20 minutes ago. I attempted to do a 45 minute exercise from my OnDemand & dude it kicked my ass. I am so out of shape & now I feel HUGE. However, I am going to look at the fact I could last 15 minutes before it felt like my knees would give out. I'm going to challenge myself.

    By next Sunday I will finish that video!

    I challenged myself with school & I got my diploma. I challenged myself at college & came out with nothing below a "B". Now though I need to work on my body.

    Back in September of 2003 I started high school & I like most girls at 14/15 felt that their body wasn't good enough. I wore I believe a size 9 in jeans. Looking back damn I so wish I was there again. I'm in a size 18. :{ Pretty soon depression set in & I could not shake it until 2007. I gained so much weight & I'm disgusted by my body. Thinking about my life & how things have gone & are going now the only way I will over come my weight problem is if I learn to love the body I have.

    I must say even though I hate it sometimes I really do love my body.     Then again the best relationships are the ones when you can admit sometimes that person (( or your body)).... you really just want to throw something at their head. Don't get me wrong it is stupendous when you fall into a relationship where its cute & sweet all the time, but those aren't as fun. I have been with my love, Pecker, for 3 years & almost 1month & every time we fight sooner or later we make up. Once we make up or right before I admit I was being stubborn I realize how great of a guy he is & that he really loves me for me.  

    Okay to come to a close of my rant...

    I love my body & I will do everything within my power to make it healthy.

Monday, 29 June 2009

  • My ramble ....
    I have noticed that within the past few days I have done a lot of evaluating myself. Dude my life & me are just blah blah & blah.

    I have added exercises, well some, but now that is clearly not enough. That actually scares me a little bit. Will I be one of those people who are never satisfied? I want to be satisfied with my life - with who I am. My En 101 & 102 Professor one day discussed aging. How in today's society we are terrified of old age & showing it. He stated that he wants to age gracefully & that was inspiring. I want to live my life. When I turn 50 I want to be proud of it. I want to feel as if my life up to that point wasn't empty or half filled. I suppose I am experiencing .... I need to do some soul searching. I have found myself quite often wondering if maybe I should take faith in God. I am not a religious person if anything I would say I prefer the spiritual path of well not the church. But now I wonder would I feel more just more if I did attend church?

    I sit & feel as if I have trillions of this swirling around all the time. I hate it. I just really want to live.
    Exercises....
    So yesterday morning I did my crunch exercises, but have yet to do them today -- I will though. I also decided to change up my everyday crunches. Where I plan to start walking I was thinking 3 days I will only do crunches, 3 days I will walk, & 1 day I'll do both. I need to mix up a little bit because I think I got bored for those 5 days.

    Crunches                            300
    Modified Bicycle Crunch      60
    Bicycle Crunch                     60
    Suitcase Crunch thingy         60
    push ups                             10

Saturday, 27 June 2009

  • So I've slacked big time on my exercises. This week everything has just been really blah. Tonight I'll start back up though - promise.

    So my birthday is like 5 days away & I'm really not that thrilled about it. Pecker is working, Army isn't home, & my best friend will probably be with her boyfriend. I'll spend the day in my room -- it actually has me kind of depressed. I'll get my mood to turn around. I do have a job interview on Tuesday that is a huge plus. Go Me!




Tuesday, 23 June 2009

  • So the 21st & 22nd I never got on & recorded my exercises. Here they are...

    Crunches                            300
    Modified Bicycle Crunch      60
    Bicycle Crunch                     60
    Suitcase Crunch thingy         60
    push ups                             10

    I don't know what has been but my knees were giving me problems.

    Today's exercises....


    Crunches                            300
    Modified Bicycle Crunch      60
    Bicycle Crunch                     60
    Suitcase Crunch thingy         60
    Leg Lift - L                          50
    Leg Lift - R                         50
    Leg Bend thingy - L             30
    Leg Bend thingy - R             30
    Squats                                30
    push ups                             10


Friday, 19 June 2009

  • So I woke up around 4:15 am ((ugh)) I try to go to bed early & things gradually wake me up in the night. So I decided to do something productive - exercise. I only did the crunches though & I attempted these weird squat I learned in high school. I think they called it a navy squat. Dude I forgot how bad it kills my knees.

    Crunches                            300
    Modified Bicycle Crunch       60
    Bicycle Crunch                     60
    Suitcase Crunch thingy         60
    push ups                              10
    Weird Navy Squat                 8

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